when boredom strikes.. narcissism rescues

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day one..

mai sings ... "and im doing just fine. getting along very well without you in my life.... im doin just fine. time made me stronger.. youre no longer on my mind." a couple of an exchange of texts with my equally bitchy grace.. MAI : hey.. wala lang.. i just feel sad. i know its the best thing to happen right now.. i know also ill be fine.. its just that im sad.. sinusumpong ako ng lungkot. GRACE : ur entitled to that. jst dnt overdo it. u cn never really appreciate happiness until uv hit that low point. MAI : thanks for being resilient like what uve always been when im not. GRACE : Not really, i work on it a lot. stay fab! big hug..

finally..

i was successful with my plan. i didnt want to put an end to whatever's been going on between me and jonas... because i know i wouldnt have the balls to stick to my decision, so i just let him be himself and hurt me so id subconsciously reach the point of me giving up...

and now i am gradually falling out of love.

after not texting nor calling each other for two or three days, i gave him a call.

finally.. he ended it.

after more than 7 months of generally being at peace and happy with each other's company.. after all the i love you's and please stay with me..... after all the i-understand statements.... after all the heartaches... after all the sacrifices.... after all the perks... jonas isnt over sam yet.

what kills me more is that he is now entertaining the thought of splitting up with tere for sam.. which he never thought of during our time..

thank you lord for helping me and making me sane and fine.

i am sad.. but i have no regrets. i have loved someone unconditionally, and more than to anyone else.. i should be proud of myself for that.. and i am.

some things arent really meant to be. and of of those is us.

i am sad.. but not for long.Ü

uhmmm.. hmmm...

".... yes i love u and i want you to stay. but i cant be with you. ill be like this for long.. invisible." uhmm.. ok. wala nakong nasabi.

they say im bitchy, i say im heavenly

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reality bites.. it really does. and it hurts...

awakened by an sms... " you make me going for the day ahead.. i love mornings now we're together." i rush to the day.. finding my gray longsleeves, my fave pants, and a sling bag and watch to match... you sent me "i know youve been waiting for this.. i know you can make it." while waiting for the results of my i.q. test and my initial interview, u messaged "fret not.this is what He wants.He'll make it happen for you". stucked in a traffic jam, while being nonchalant to the profit hungry cab driver, i read my phone.. "you see.. congrats! can i be any prouder? mwah.Ü". while taking down the director's reminders, you texted me.. "im here outside..". ............. and then you give me a big hug.. smooches on my face... you hand me a dinner present. you tell me... i love you baby........ on my way home... you didnt forget to tell me thru my mobile "you take lotsa care. i wont forgive myself if sumthin happens to you." bleep... bleep.. (reality check....) 1 new message.. Baby.... "ey, sory, cnadya k hwag mgtxt para hwag mas masira araw agad nyt mo sa ust. d ako nag 6-9 knna, kse ksama ko c tere. 2nd month namin and now im writing my blog.