basing on experience, this is another anthology of your "life". another episode of your exploration and seeing the world. and i know you will disagree.. and thats the act 2 of your story im talking about.
it seems strange that after more than a decade of being together and claiming that we know each other very much, that one need not talk about something for the other one to know how he feels and thinks, you fail to realize that your argument of your need to breathe and grow apart from us is actually MY mantra. and since im holding on to that principle, why would i stop you from expanding your horizons? you would even be the first one to get annoyed when we talk about this issue, claiming that theres really no fuss. i tried to understand and believe you, but your actions just wont suffice your standpoint. and based on how well i know you, that part has a subtext of "id be pissed off to get away with it coz i really cant justify my exploits (either by coincidence or by choice)".
to be fair to you, it really did start with a lame jealousy. i admit that with all conviction and pride because thats a simple gauge of how important you are to me. but you know, after sometime, the jealousy has metamorphosed into indifference.. thinking this too shall pass.. and later on after a few more dramas, the indifference has fashioned to hurt and disappointment. and yes i am hurting because you are disappoiting. disappointing for making ivy cry. hurting for leaving bec wondering. and im very hurt for you to be not practicing what you are preaching. my issue is not about you finding happiness and thrill in the company of other people because that is beyond my control. my issue is you going on circles and doing a LOT of things that are contradicting to your statements. you know you remind me very well of my first love. maybe we could talk more about this instead for you may be able to assay things to me better because you are of the same feather.
i miss you very much and it pains that you remain silent and away from the place youve referred to as your home. oh, i almost forgot the friendster comment you made. (my reply in bold)
"nothin's changed (try consulting your optometrist)..i love u soooo much and i love our sisters soooo much (until when was this?)...how can we let misunderstandings get in the way (honey, maybe you should ask yourself)..i feel so singled out (that was your choice)...i don't even know where to pick up the pieces...where did i go wrong?? (now thats a bigger problem) i miss u..i miss us...i'll no longer beg for your understanding..i know you guys are tired of me already..all i'm asking for now is for all of you to love me...again...(love is something you earn. and a simple friendster comment wont create a revolution. stand up and do what you say) "
and even before you start to misinterpret me again, im not asking you to leave or shut them off your system. they are good people with how i see them because if theyre not you wont even be with them at the first place. i just want you to know that in this season of "FRIENDS", youve been doing too much adlibs and youre way out of context. and absurdly, the director becomes powerless and only you.. ONLY YOU can say "CUT!"
