uhmm..

Sentiments of a Could-Have-Been Mistress

I am to be blamed for feeling miserable.

I pushed myself to the limit because I held on to the very minute ray of hope I had.

I was persistent because it is very seldom that I find a gem in a bed of stones.

I wanted to pursue you despite knowing that we can't be together because of certain circumstances.

I had to take my chances because I didnt want this rare moment of me becoming interested with a guy just pass, like it meant nothing to me.

I liked how our differences made us closer and more intimate.

I loved how my friends adored you.

I treasure you for being there at my lowest.

I was able to do things that were uncalled for because I wanted to see for myself what's with him that's making you faithful.. as you claim.

I am now confused with what's the truth behind all of your statements to me for I have seen things when I got back, that contradict your claim to fidelity.

I am hurt.. above all.

I am missing you so much.

I am helping myself and I just cant wait for me to be over you.

If you cant feel the same way I do to you, just please help me find myself again...

Because I have a fabulous life to attend to.